For those of you that have been around a while, you know that I used to blog a lot. There are some things from that blog that will be carried over like my use of song titles because well... I'm me. There are a lot of things though that won't continue though. My blog used to be a place for me to vent or work out whatever was going on in my life by writing about it. I don't really need a place to vent though. If you came here looking for juicy information about my life, I can guarantee that there won't be anything interesting.
As the title of this says... I'm starting again. On this final day of my freshman year of college, I decided to look back at the person I was at the beginning of this year compared to now. I can honestly say I'm starting to love the new person I've become. This year I was incredibly blessed (and finally realized some of the blessings in my life) with being able to live and grow with eight sisters in Christ. They have shaped and changed me in ways that they probably won't ever realize, but I am so thankful for them and who they are. I was blessed with wonderful friends, neighbors, professors, and experiences. In the last eight months I have realized some of what I really want in life. All of my life I have been told that I need to find a guy, date him, get married, and have kids. That's what I always thought would happen when I went to college, but this year I learned that I LOVE my independence. I LOVE being able to do what I want to do when I want to do it. I learned that I want and need time to grow alone. Don't get me wrong, I loved being in a relationship too... but I learned that before I get into a relationship with a man of God, I need to build a stronger relationship with God himself. I learned that although I've gone to church for as long as I remember, I was not being intentional in my walk with the Lord.
With this realization came some intense life changes (near-death experiences tend to make you realize some pretty important things). Here are some examples of changes I have made in my life:
1) I'm being intentional in my prayer
2) I'm getting in the word every day
3) I'm make a point of attempting to be kind to everyone
4) I'm reconciling past differences and problems
5) I'm attempting to be more of a servant and putting others first
6) I'm avoiding negativity and trying to be light in the lives of those around me
Don't get me wrong, I'm nowhere near perfect and never will be. But I truly feel like college is a new beginning for me. It's changing who I am as a person. It has made me stronger, more independent, more driven, more focused, and just a better person in general. With my new beginning I want to take it day by day, enjoy the little things (whether they are going on an adventure or making cookies for my neighbors) and honestly be the best person I could be. I want to let go of the past injuries and harms. I want positivity and happiness. I want to really take advantage of every day that I have been blessed with on this wonderful planet. I can't wait for my future and i remember the past, but I'm really really just excited for the present and all of the wonderful things God has in store for me today (and for the days to come). So keep in touch and thanks for reading.
Resonating Lyrics:
And for the first time what's past is past
And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause he never did
I've been spending the last 8 months thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe, I watched it begin again.
