My Life is in Your Hands

There is nothing more I can do.

That sentence is one of the single most terrifying sentences in my world. I'm never that person. I don't accept that ever, but right now it's where I'm at. The last few weeks have reminded me of a few things... 1) I am not in control   2) I can't do everything   3) Life isn't perfect    4) Sometimes there is nothing I can do but pray   and most importantly: 5) No matter what is going on in my life, God knows what he is doing. I can get through anything if I put my faith in him.

I honestly don't know what I'm doing right now. I'm unemployed, drowning in school loans, an emotional mess, tired, and uncertain as to what I'm doing with my life. My family is a mess, I really cannot find a job, and I don't even know what to do with myself... but I keep telling myself it will all be okay.

Every time we sang this song on tour I really thought about the words.. I thought about everything going on in my life and I'm not going to lie.. I cried. But I think the wonderful thing that I'm realizing is that I will make it if I just trust God. Yes all of San Diego County seems to be on fire right now. Yes I am terrified for my friends and my family. Yes I wish I knew where they were all evacuating to and knew that they were going to be 100% okay... but I don't. Yes, I wish I got the answers I wanted. Yes, I wish that life wasn't complicated. Yes, I wish that I was employed. Yes, I wish that my whole life didn't keep flipping upside down. Yes, I wish I could get people to stop leaving. Yes, I wish life would just pause. Yes, I wish I could have everything figured out. But that just isn't how life works.... not at all.

And with all that insanity out in the open I leave you with this to mull over:

Resonating Lyrics:
You don't have to worry and don't you be afraid
Joy comes in the morning, troubles they don't last always
For there's a friend in Jesus who will wipe your tears away
And if your heart is broken, just lift your hands and say

Oh I know that I can make it
I know that I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands
With Jesus I can take it
With Him I know I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands

So when your tests and trials, they seem to get you down
And all your friends and loved ones are nowhere to be found
Remember there's a friend in Jesus, who will wipe your tears away
And if you heart is broken, just lift your hands and say

Oh I know that I can make it
I know that I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands
With Jesus I can take it
With Him I know I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands

Sometime we really just need that reminder... the reminder that as cheesy as it sounds.. the size of our storm doesn't matter... what matters is the size of our God. I'm horrible at remembering that. I'm horrible at putting my trust in Him and accepting that I can't do it alone. I hate admitting that I need help, but I need to. I need help. I can't do it, but the great thing is my life is in His hands.