Unwritten

Summer. 

For me, summer is confusing. Summer is a time where I am left with too much time on my hands. I spend months with all my philosophical musings and insane dreams. I spend months trying to decide what to do with my summer and I spend so much time trying to plan, that I lose most of my summer. I spend so much time trying to get my summer to be exactly how I want it to be and spend it in the perfect way, that I forget to live. 

This summer I don't want to spend the whole time on the couch watching Netflix and hoping that I can make plans with friends soon. I do not want to spend my whole summer making plans for and focusing on the school year to come. I don't want to spend this whole entire summer yearning for school to begin again. Don't get me wrong... I miss school. I miss my friends. I miss my classes. I miss my professors. I miss having a place where I belong, but I can just as easily make that place here for a few months. 

My summer plans aren't concrete. I have nothing set in stone and I honestly have no clue where I'm going or what I'm doing. I'm 18. I have so much ahead of me in life. I know what I want of course, but my future is unwritten. I don't have my life written and planned out in front of me. God has not blessed me with a copy of the story of my life. I don't know what's going to happen... but I can live every day like it's my last. I can live with passion. 

This summer I'm going to adventure. I'm going to laugh. I'm going to do a lot of things... but nothing is set in stone...

My Summer Wishlist:

1) Midterm in Taekwondo

2) Possibly consider competing again

3) Continue running whether it be a mile a day or four or more... it feels good when I'm done

4) Continue doing a minimum of two hours of taekwondo a day (during the week at least)

5) Continue hunting for a summer job

6) Learn to be even more independent 

7) Truly devote time to grow in my walk with the Lord

8) Practice every day 

9) Go on a crazy adventure or several...

I say it's a wishlist because all of these things could happen... or none of them could happen... but I don't know if or when they will... I'll do my best to make these things happen, but I don't know. and I'm actually okay with that. 

Resonating Lyrics: 

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined. I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned.

The rest of the lyrics are important too, but if you want to hear the rest just go listen to the song.